I always thought i was strong, but i am wrong.
All along, i told myself and others: just try! it doesn't matter, don't worry about getting hurt. at most you'll just learn from your mistake or this relationship and pick yourself up again. but if you don't try, you won't learn anything, gain any experience and you may just live to regret it.
now....i think i can't say the same. my stand still remains as this but i'm not confident of being able to carry out the above. Digging deep into my heart, i've always been afraid of getting hurt. i realise i've been searching for protection. perhaps because of certain background....but yeah. even though that kind of hurt i haven't experience i before, I'm afraid to even let myself in into that situation. probably to prevent myself from getting hurt ultimately. mmhmmmmm.....
BUT IN ANY CASE, actually what i wanna say is, it's when we are weak, then we are made strong in Christ! Dear God, i believe You'll lead me in making every decisions to reflect Your glory and power, that precisely because i am so frail and vulnerable, i can depend on You to help me through. :)
so...What's next? hahaha
RUI EN FTW!!
yknw it's not gonna last.
hungry@ 10:34 am