ahhhh i'm tanned and black again........ :( i don't like! i have no choice... and my nose is so painful now, only my nose is burnt from yesterday's training 6.5 hours straight. sighhhh i want to be fair fair fair. aiyooooo.. tsk. oh, and i'm having muscle aches, so much of it. i played volleyball after training back in prss! and i'm lovin it so much, feels like a big family :D

i wanna give thanks, 'cause God always send me timely reminders and deliver ropes to pull me, hang me in there, or just give me a light push to keep me going, to tell me not to give up. although mnay a times i have disappointed Him in the things i do, the way i react, the actions that i know clearly i should not have done. 不知者无罪(the unaware is guiltless)totally does not hold for me, 'cause i know so clearly what i should not do and i do it, can say on purpose, again and again. Today i asked God during prayer, i know i shouldn't make the same mistake over and over again, but yet i did. i know i should keep my promise to You and not talk back, react the way i normally will, but i still did after a while. i know i know i know. all i know. i'm totally not a first time sinner that commit this same sin who deserves a second chance, who is worth to be forgiven anymore. so do You, Father, still forgive me for what i've done? my mind tells me NO! NO WAY! but i feel the peace that God says, ' yes, i still forgive you after all these countless sins you've commited, repeatedly, because you're trying hard. '

yeah, i'm comforted. though still disappointed and frustrated with myself, I'm gonna keep trying my best to try. Thank You Lord. :)

To everyone, God loves you! :D