Stronghold.. what's mine?
i realise another stronghold i have, that is i get agitated easily.
i get very worked up, irritated, frustrated, etc very easily, i couldn't control my temper and emotions well and so on. impatience is part of it, part of that factor that i snap very easily.
maybe its just called...having a low level of tolerance? maybe i just can't tolerate things not going my way, maybe its because i don't have enough self-control for my emotions. i don't know... i still can't figure out a specific vocab to describe this stronghold of mine. perhaps.. i'm not humble enough.

for example, when my friends tell me i gave the wrong info abt SGC and all, i admit i was feeling so frustrated, i feel that it wasn't my fault at all, a certain part of me was even blaming others for getting me indirectly blamed. i guess so. i couldn't accept the fact that i did gave the wrong info, not getting my source of info into the picture, indeed i did gave the wrong info.
yeah.. i think my problem is that i don't like to be at fault, to be blamed, and unable to admit my wrong. (not so serious for this incident lah.)
that's probably why i get angry and irritated easily. in another point of view, i even think its because i am not very generous at heart.
OH, YESSS! that's it. i get it. i don't have a big heart. actually i still don't quite get myself.

hmm, never mind. never mind what exactly my stronghold is that is making myself so miserable even for a night. yes, why affect my mood for the few precious hours just because of a situation that is not as complex as i thought it to be, a problem that is not even considered a problem? and it might have made me offended people unnecessarily in the process, in the heat of the moment. hee, at least now i know i have something to work on.

Thank God for showing me yet another stronghold of mine, one that has been affecting my behaviour and thoughts without me noticing, without me even considering it as a problem. so yeah, i thank you Lord for bringing me to cell group yesterday, when i could have decided to continue sleeping because i was really tired, to receive this important point to note from you!

hahaha and to my friends from prss, next time i will check properly before posting any info for you all ok! still very sorry lahhhh. esp to yunfang, sharon chia, weiting and all those who made their trip back to PRSS in vain for SGC due to my post!
p.s. please don't lose faith and trust in the reliability of my blog posts just 'cause of this okay!! give me a chance lah :p my first wrong info and mistake post only! my blog is still very reliable :D

hungry@ 5:08 pm