yea man.
the 'once-in-a-lifetime' china trip took away
my 'once-in-a-lifetime' cross-country run. D:
&i can say i'm feeling terriblyyy upset. ))))))))):
you can say cross-country is not once in a lifetime,
cus next year still have.
but it is considered like that to me.
i'm only sec3 once in a lifetime.
the year is different. ohwell.
forget it. you won't understand..
but by comparing, china trip is definitely a more rare opportunity,
one that weighs more priority than x-country. :

yes, obey is the word.
this is God's will. He wanted it to turn out this way ya.
so i'll just have to obey.
since the airplane ticket is booked, almost everything is settled.
SIGHHH.

a.maths and english test today was kind of disastrous.
but i wasn't panicky, neither was i worried, before and after the tests.
i wonder what kind of person have i turned into.
in terms of attitude, i think i changed. i think i'm slacking more.
i mean, it's not that i never study or what. i did.
but i just don't feel the importance of tests anymore.
no matter how i find the papers, i kind of heck-care.
the 'it's just a test' feeling is always recurring.
maybe i want to care, but i couldn't?

have i turned bad? oh whatever.
i feel like throwing everything down mann.
the burdens are getting heavier.
perhaps that's why i don't feel like putting in
super much effort in everything anymore..
i'm very tired. very very tired. arghh.

i haven't done..

• maths tuition hw[due:tmr]
• Social Studies SEQ(CA)[due:friday]
• SC camp welfare proposal
• read chinese newspapers(teacher's instruction)
• revisionssss.

tmr there's e.maths test.

should be getting back a.maths. no need see la. sure fail. lol.

lessons end at 3 tmr. freak lah. still got tuition after that.

yes, i agree that i'm drifting away from you God.):

i don't know what to do. BYE.

hungry@ 8:27 pm